Crazy Faith

"Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see." ~Hebrews 11:1 Hey Guys! Welcome to the blog! This blog is to describe our journey on our crazy leap of faith! Get ready to join the rollercoaster ride, and see how God can take two very ordinary people and completely reshape them and mold them to completely trust in Him in ALL things!

Name:
Location: Pineville, KY

I'm originally from CA, consider my hometown to be Shelbyville, KY but am currently residing in Pineville, KY. I love hanging out with my kiddos and Dan, the city, the ocean, taking hiking trips in the mountains, being around my closest friends, and watching a good chick flick! More than anything though, I love praising and worshiping our Savior Jesus Christ. It is a mystery to me, why He chooses and wants to use me?!?! He is so amazing!

Thursday, August 27, 2009

To Devon:

Priceless Moments

I was a nervous wreck when you called me into your office on a July day. Anxious to hear back from our interview together. You totally messed with me and told me “I have good new and bad news. The good news is you got the job!!!!” I was so thrilled! I sat in your office beaming with joy, crying and laughing. I will never forget that day when our crazy journey began!

You started me off slowly, knowing I was incredibly shy and terrified of speaking in front of people. Our first training together was working with Money Gram at Nuestro Banco, then also working with a few other branches and letting me go on my own to train Wal-Mart, Downtown, and Main Office. I remember how nervous I was, but you were always there encouraging me and pushing me out of my comfort zone. (You’re good at that!)

We also traveled to Dupont to train the staff on Steller! I remember how much I enjoyed that because the line was my specialty. Plus I got to meet some people who I may have never gotten to know other wise.

My first big training with you was CUB’s Product Training. It’s so funny looking back on that training because knowing what we know now about training, CUB’s Product Training (sorry) was so lame!! You and I standing in front of the Community Room with 50 people just talking the entire time. BORING! (Man we’ve come a long way since then!)

We have had some of the most hysterical moments also. One of my first days in the department I was loading our cart with snacks and drinks. The drinks fell off the cart, began rolling down the Main Office parking lot, and I begin chasing the drinks, in heels. Meanwhile, without knowing, the cart begins rolling down the sidewalk and slams into a customer’s car! I freak out, look around to see if anyone saw the mini chaos, gather the items together, check the car for a dent (there wasn’t one, thank God!) and get the heck out of there!

I can remember times that you and I would laugh so hard that it hurt! Us meeting in the Simpsonville Training Room and I was trying to adjust my chair when it suddenly flung me forward and broke! I think we laughed over that for an hour. Laughter over a joke, a sibling/child story, a trip or a fall, a clumsy moment, moments when our cart was completely overloaded and it would all tumble over, or moments when our arms were completely overloaded and we looked ridiculous carrying all those items. (We sure are overloaded a lot!)

Our first Costco trip when we had four huge carts overflowing and then we pull up in Mickey’s small itty bitty car! The look on that woman’s face was priceless!! Making two trips just to fit it all in! Then driving back to Shelbyville, not even being able to see out of any windows other than the front ones, talking about how we could get pulled over for this, then you telling me you don’t have your driver’s license on you and I totally go in freak out mode, because I’m such a “nerd” like that! I’ll never forget all the stares we got driving down interstate! We laughed the whole way back to Shelbyville. Aww… Priceless!

Deciding to take a trip to Downtown Louisville to look for a place to hold our 2009 Employee Development Conference, we get off the wrong exit in the ghetto. Two white girls, lost, in the wrong part of town. We finally make our way back on interstate and head to Fourth Street for lunch. Mexican food sounded good and decided to go into this one “restaurant” TENGO SED CANTINA, even though we had no idea what that restaurant name was, we knew it was Mexican. We walk in, while you were on your cell, and right away, I notice something isn’t right. I see a walkway with poles on it! We sit, and then you notice the poles! We begin thinking, “what kind of place is this?!?!” None the less, we begin looking through our menus and notice there is no food! Only like nachos and stuff. You call Chris Dittz to have the name of the place translated. It stands for ANGEL BAR!! It’s a strip club!! We paid an outrageous, ridiculous amount for a small coke and chips and salsa and left!! Another priceless moment!

It’s been amazing to know that everyday when I come into work, I will have a good laugh about something. I have loved having a supervisor who doesn’t mind being silly and who allows me to be silly and not feel stupid!

I also look back at just the every day life as a trainer. Lugging, loading, setting up drinks and snacks; setting up, taking down, rearranging tables and chairs; sweating, hair going flat, feeling gross moments before a training; vacuuming!; putting together 330 almonds thingies!; setting up, tearing down for conferences; countless practices / run-throughs for trainings; running for more ice, running for more water, running for more cups. Aww… Life as a Trainer is wonderful.

Together we have done:
2 Steller Trainings for Dupont; 3 Product Trainings for FFB; 5 Money Gram Trainings; 4 Teller Seminars; 2 thirteen week FPU Classes; 1 thirteen week Community FPU Class; 15 sessions of Customer Service Training; 4 sessions of FFB Customer Service; 9 New Hire Trainings; 2 Employees Development Conferences; 9 Buzz Sessions; 2 Train the Trainer Sessions; 13 Product Trainings; 6 Non U.S. Persons; 18 Platform Trainings; 2 Sessions of Time Management Training; 57 sessions of Sales Training; and 12 Teller Trainings. Now, granted we may not have been the ones who actually spoke at some of these trainings, we were the ones to prepare, set up, tear down and be there for each and every one! WoW!

We have also driven together over 4,012.22 miles!! Dude, we could’ve gone to San Diego on that! (with 1,133.04 miles to spare!)

With the freedom you gave me and with your encouragement and with taking a chance, you allowed me to create Teller Professionalism, EDC 2009, Customer Service 2009, revamp New Hire Training, add creativity to Financial Peace University, hold FPU for the Community, Harassment Training 2009 and allowed me to discover a wonderful gift that God has given me to brainstorm and create! Now that is priceless! Thank you!

We sure have been on an amazing, priceless journey!

Through out the two years you have taught me so much. I can’t even begin to explain how incredibly grateful I am for your leadership and guidance that you have shown me and taught me. You have shown me what it means to be strong even in difficult times and how to be brave even when I don’t want to be. You have pushed me out of my comfort zone only to show me that I could do what I never thought would be possible.

Thank you for always being there! Thank you for teaching me what the big words mean! J Thank you for making me see and teaching me the “big picture” way of doing things! Thank you for always believing in me! Thank you for taking chances with me! Thank you for showing me what real management is supposed to look like! Thank you for making me laugh and smile everyday! Thank you for allowing me to spread my wings and soar like an eagle! Thank you for trusting me! Thank you for being trust worthy! Thank you for creating a stress free work place! Thank you for listening and caring! Thank you for always having my back! Thank you for creating an atmosphere of open and honest communication! Thank you for making work so enjoyable that it’s more like a hobby than it is work! Thank you for your support! Thank you for your encouragement! Thank you for teaching me! Thank you for challenging me and pushing me out of my comfort zone!

Thank you for all the priceless moments that are now life long memories!

That is more than a supervisor. That is a life long friend whom I will forever cherish!

I’ll miss you and love ya bunches!!!

~Nicole
Jeremiah 29:11
Joshua 1:8-9

Awe! and Amazement!

Hey Guys, I know I was kinda all doom and gloom this morning, and honestly still am a bit sad, but I had to post again and share, how amazing our God is!

I had some time on my hands, so I revisited the Not A Fan website (notafan.com) and ended up watching the original not a fan sermon that was in the Upside Down Way of Jesus series. You know what I love? I love how God knows He's up to something big and you have absolutely no idea! I can remember the conviction I felt that Sunday hearing the sermon, and I had no idea that God was softening my heart, molding and shaping me, to something huge! He was preparing me to obey His call! So Cool!!

It's just so amazing and comforting and peaceful knowing that!

Had to share!

CYA!

Emotional Roller Coaster

Hey Guys,

Is it selfish of me to ask for prayer. I so need prayer for comfort, and peace, and hope. I mean, I do have those things, but days like today I just need it a little extra.

My position was posted today. When I opened the link, I just cried. The title is Training Manager, and Devon had told me last week that I was about to get that promotion.

It's moments like these that I can't help but ask God why? This is what I've been working for and dreaming of for the two years that I have been in training. Why is it right here in front of me, practically mine, and I can't have it?

I find comfort in this:
"To everything there is a season. A time for every purpose under Heaven." ~ Ecclesiastes 3:1

I know tomorrow will be a very tough day. It is my last day with CUB.

Thanks for the prayers!

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Good Times!

I love hangin' with my sisters in Christ! It is always so refreshing and always a great time! I am so happy and blessed that I get to have some quality time with them before I leave this Friday.

Saturday night Mary had her "personal" shower! It was so fun. Lisa embarrassed the crap out of me, (knowing how easily I blush at everything). I chipped in on whatever Lisa got for Mary, not knowing exactly what she had picked out for her. I think it may have been the wildest thing that Mary got!

Afterwards we all went to the Melting Pot, which was a great time. We were all seriously like a pack of wolves devouring all the food when it came, we were starving! And they bring it out like seriously an hour in between each course, and we had a four course meal! It was insane! But great!

YUMMO!!!



Me and Lisa


Mary's Grandma panties for her pantie line!!

I'm Freezing Now!

This poor heater! I have been with CUB for 4 years, and through my journey here this heater has accompanied me along the way.

As always when I arrive at work, Monday morning I plug it up and turn it on. Only this time, it didn't turn on. I guess it knew I didn't really need it any more! (Would've been nice if it had lasted my last week though!) :)

Please Pray

Please be in prayer for our family right now. Dan's Uncle Gerald passed away early Sunday morning. Gerald has been battling cancer for sometime now and has been in and out of remission several times. Over the past month however, things turned worse. His organs began shutting down and few days ago, and passed at 5AM on Sunday.

The family is taking it pretty hard, especially Dan's mom and the other siblings. We appreciate the love and prayers.

Friday, August 21, 2009

Blue

So, I'm sitting here in my office and it's all just kinda hitting me that I have one week left. Devon left a bit ago and we told each other, as every Friday, to have a great weekend. That's when it hit me. That will be the last time that we say that to each other. :( So now, I'm sitting here eating some good ol' chocolate, wondering what the heck we're doing?!?!

I'm a huge fan of Christian music. There's been some songs lately that when I hear them, it kinda speaks to me about the journey. I thought I would post some of the lyrics.

Motions
This might hurt, it's not safe
But I know that I've gotta make a change
I don't care if I break,
At least I'll be feeling something'
Cause just okay is not enough
Help me fight through the nothingness of life

I don't wanna go through the motions
I don't wanna go one more day
without Your all consuming
passion inside of me
I don't wanna spend my whole life asking,
"What if I had given everything,
instead of going through the motions?"

No regrets, not this time
I'm gonna let my heart defeat my mind
Let Your love make me whole
I think I'm finally feeling something'
Cause just okay is not enough
Help me fight through the nothingness of this life'

Cause I don't wanna go through the motions
I don't wanna go one more day
without Your all consuming
passion inside of me
I don't wanna spend my whole life asking,
"What if I had given everything,
instead of going through the motions?"

take me all the way (take me all the way)
take me all the way ('cause I don't wanna go through the motions)
take me all the way (I know I'm finally feeling something real)
take me all the way

I don't wanna go through the motions
I don't wanna go one more day
without Your all consuming
passion inside of me
I don't wanna spend my whole life asking,
"What if I had given everything,
instead of going through the motions?"
I don't wanna go through the motions
I don't wanna go one more day
without Your all consuming
passion inside of me
I don't wanna spend my whole life asking,
"What if I had given everything,
instead of going through the motions?"

take me all the way (take me all the way)
take me all the way (I don't wanna go, I don't wanna go)
take me all the way (through the motions)
take me all the way

I don't wanna go through the motions


Something Heavenly

It's time for healing
time to move on
It's time to fix what's been broken too long
Time to make right
what has been wrong
It's time to find my way
to where I belong

There's a wave that's crashing over me
And all I can do is surrender

Whatever You're doing
inside of me
It feels like chaos
but somehow there's peace
It's hard to surrender
to what I can't see
but I'm giving into
something Heavenly

Time for a milestone
Time to begin again
Reevaluate who I really am
Am I doing everything to follow Your will
Or just climbing aimlessly over these hills

So show me what it is You want from me
I give everything I surrender

Whatever You're doing
inside of me
It feels like chaos
but somehow there's peace
It's hard to surrender to what I can't see
but I'm giving in to something Heavenly

Time to face up
Clean this old house
Time to breathe in and let everything out
That I've wanted to say for so many years
Time to release all my held back tears

Whatever You're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but I believe
You're up to something bigger than me
Larger than life something Heavenly

Whatever You're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but now I can see
This is something bigger than me
Larger than life something Heavenly
Something Heavenly

It's time to face up
Clean this old house
Time to breathe in and let everything out

Thursday, August 20, 2009

First Day of School!

August 13th:
Wow! Can you believe my baby is starting kindergarten today?!?! He is so big! He looked so incredibly handsome this morning! Zachary said his shorts and spiked hair made him look like he needed to go to the beach! I love it!

Today was also Dan's first day of classes at CCBBC. He seems excited, but hates that he couldn't be here to see Zachary. I'm so proud of Dan! I know he'll do great!

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Sorry Sarah

August 10th
I had to call Sarah, our realtor, today to tell her that we weren't putting our house up for sale. I felt really bad because one, she's more than our realtor, she's our friend. And two, she's worked so hard on this that I hated having to call her hours before the signing only to cancel.

You know, I love how God just shapes us and molds us. I mean it's no fun going through it when you're going through it, ya know? But looking back, and seeing how gracious He is, and how He cares and loves you, and how He provides and He's there with you, it makes you just fall more in love with Him and worship Him! He's providing to where with Justin paying rent we can pay our mortgage and we are now also able to catch up! YAY!

I think He's teaching me to totally rely on Him! I feel like I am in complete chaos, yet I'm peaceful. I am so scared but yet comforted.

Thank you Jesus!

Here come the Attacks

Ok, so I know that when you are in His will, that the evil one will attack. Boy is he ever! Let me catch you up:

First off, on the 28th, Dan and I got the day off to go to Pineville to look for jobs. (Pretty important, don't you think? Being that we've only got about 4 weeks left before we move and we have NO jobs!) Anywho, I ended up not being able to go because Zachary and I got really, really sick. I mean, it was ugly! Poor thing. Him and I were taking turns in the bathroom all night and all day. I think at one point him and I fell asleep on the bathroom floor together. :( After all the bathroom trips stopped, it took us a few days to get over that horrable achy feeling that you have.

All of that really slowed down our progress on getting the house ready. I mean, I know it's just 3 day, but when 2 weeks is all you got, that's a long time.

August 7th:
That night, being Friday night, we decided to take a trip to Pineville since our cottage was ready!
Dan's parents drove their truck and we took ours, so we were able to get two huge loads to our new home! (pics coming soon!) It made me really excited to see our new place and meet some of the people on campus. It was so cute, you should've seen all the boys. Brandon, Bradley (Dan's two younger brothers) and Zachary were all helping us unload the truck and Nicholas wanted to help. So, carrying his favorite pillow he comes to the truck to help and I handed him this little camera box to carry in. He just got so excited! Walking in this very proud way saying "thank you box! I help! Thank you box!" with his pillow tucked under one arm and the box under the other! I love my baby!

Anyways, earlier that day when Dan and I were doing our monthly budget, and honestly I know this is personal but God is doing something great here so I'm gonna share it anyways, we're about $800.00 shy. Scary, I know. We're wondering how in the world we are going to make it. Dan's last day at work was on July 31st, so we're short an entire income. My car needed new tires, which were 300 bucks, Dan had to stay in a hotel during CCBBC orientation which was 120 dollars, and we are behind. We also found out that in order to replace our carpet it's going to cost us 530 dollars. All of this PLUS being the 800 shy. What the heck are we supposed to do?

We spent the whole weekend just praying that God would provide. I mean He does tell us "not to worry. That He provides even for the birds in the air, how much more will He provide for us!?"

But yet still, we become extremley stressed and worrisome. Saturday, after returning to Shelbyville, we begin painting on Sunday. We're totally stressed because I mean, our house is supposed to go on the market tomorrow!! I'm totally freaking out, in tears.

But our God is AMAZING!!! He is so teaching me that He will not bring us this far and then let go. No. He is with us all the way, always, through it all!

It's Sunday night and we're still stressin'. At 11 PM we get a phone call from Dan's brother, Justin. He wants to rent our home! Now, I completley did not want to rent our home. I mean let's take a minute and look at this. One, we are still responsible for the house. If somethings breaks, we replace it. If Justin bailes out, we still have a mortgage. If it gets trashed, we're still responsible. Not saying that Justin wouldn't take care of the place, this was just my thoughts on renting in general. Alot can go wrong. However, we realized that if we rented out our home that it would mean freeing up my paycheck at the end of the month, providing us the exact same amount that we're short!!! And, we had been praying for God to provide. And as I'm learning, my plans are not His plans. My wants are not His wants. Was this God's way of providing? We felt complete peace about it, so... we're renting our house now! Oh my! 8)
But, hey I mean this whole thing is just us leaping out on Crazy Faith! Why not our house too!

God is amazing!!

For Sale!

July 24th:
Our realtor came today to give us advice on what we can do to help sell the house. (By the way, I love our realtor! She's great! She's actually our really good friend and our pastor's wife!)
Pretty much we already had a pretty good idea on what needed to be done. Finish up some projects, get new carpet, steam clean our kitchen tile, paint and keep on cleaning, cleaning and cleaning.
Who knew that preparing a house to sell would become your new hobby!
We sign papers on August 10th (2 weeks from now) to put our house on the market. We have alot of work to do!

Pack...Clean....Pack some more.... Clean some more!

July 22nd:
Packing and Cleaning. I feel like that has seriously become my life! Outside of work, that's all I do anymore. I've got some great little helpers though! (Pics coming soon, promise!) My little guys are big helpers, singing right along the Barney Clean Up Song! "Clean up, clean up! Everybody, everywhere! Clean up, Clean up! Everbody do your share!" - You totally sung it didn't you!!! :)
CYA!

Notice

July 21st:
I gave my notice today. There were a lot of tears. It was aweful. Thank God though for a supervisor who understands and who is although sad, is very supportive, proud of me, and who gave me lots of encouragement.
Thanks Devon! You're the greatest!

Fear

July 16th
So, today Devon (my supervisor) returns to work after a three week vacation in Europe. I am super excited to see her and hear all of her stories in person instead of just reading them on her blog. I have to admit though, all I can think about is how I have to totally drop this huge bomb on her, giving her my notice. I'm not going to do that to her today, probably Monday. I think this will be one of the hardest things that I have had to do. Seriously, what I do for a living is great! I absolutely love my job, the company, and people I work with and get to see. God is really teaching me that my plans are not His plans. And through it all, I have to totally trust and surrender everything to Him. No matter the pain or the fear that lies ahead. I have to remember that I can't see the spotlight, only the flashlight. He has a master plan, and is here with me through the pain.
It blows my mind how quickly your plans and your life can change. I mean 3 weeks ago, all was normal and just dandy.

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
~ Jeremiah 29:11

Acceptance

July 14th:
Dan recieves a letter in the mail stating that he has been accepted to Clear Creek Bible Baptist College. It was an exciting moment, no doubt. But the reality really hit us at this point that we would need to put our home up for sale, put in our notices at work (which honestly is the one thing that I'm struggling the most with), leave a wonderful church, leave family and friends (obviously another huge struggle), and pack up our two young boys and leave for Pineville, ky. Still my thought: itty bitty town with nothing around... why God, why?
An amazing door opened for us though! Praise God!! Dan has pretty much a full ride!!

Friday, August 14, 2009

The Visit

After our meeting with Brother Chris, we actually began praying about the thought of attending a school that would require us to move. We began looking into Liberty University located in Virginia; Clear Creek Bible Baptist College located in Pineville, KY; and Union College.

On July 1st Dan and I drove to Pineville, KY and visited Clear Creek Bible Baptist College (CCBBC). The thoughts in my head on the two hour fourty five minute drive were, "no way. This will never happen. I can't leave my job, our family and friends, our home, our lives."

When we arrived at the campus, let me just say I was freaking out, while Dan was falling in love! (Maybe that's why I was freaking out?!?) Dan absolutely loved the campus, the people, the mountains, everything. While I'm thinking... Pineville Kentucky. Population 2000? Number of students on campus 200? Itty bitty hick town where so far every person I've seen in this town has this nasty huge thing of dip in their mouths. For crying out loud I am a California Girl at heart who is all city and Your putting me here of all places, I can bairly stand Shelbyville!!! (Some of that was really my prayer!)

So yep, Dan fell in love with the school and had complete peace about all of it. The thought of moving was just peaceful to him. No doubt. While I am seriously freaking completely out.

At the end of the week, I had to get away and just be with God in prayer. I was able to get away for a couple of hours and was alone with God praying, asking God Why? Why now? Why the heck Pineville? While I was studying I found comfort in the fact that when Jesus called His disciples they couldn't even go back to say their goodbyes. How merciful is God for giving me more than a month to say my goodbyes?! I had to also remember my earnest prayer to Him when I asked for Him to give me a spirit that is willing to give up any and everything for Him and His glory. God quickly put me in my place and made me realize how selfish I had been acting and how my plans are not always His plans. And I had already had this lesson before in life, so it's nothing new to me.

I had to pray for focus. Focus on Him and not wordly things. In the book Crazy Love by Francis Chan (seriously read this book, it's amazing) it talks about how the church should be afraid when we are succeeding more in worldly things then in things for His Kingdom. This brought such conviction about my own career. Yes, God called me to this career without a doubt, but maybe now He's calling me out of it. I really don't understand it, but then again we're told not to lean on our own understanding. I love how one good friend put it. God doesn't shine a spotlight, He only shines a flashlight. We can't see His big picture, so we just have to trust in Him in these steps that lead to His big picture. I'm telling you what, I am so grateful for Erika and allowing God to speak comfort into my life at this time. Erika also helped me realize the possibilities as to why God may be calling us to Pineville. Maybe it's to have more time with our kids and as a family, or maybe it's to save money. Erika had no idea at the time that God recently placed a call in our lives to adopt one day from China and we had been praying about how in the world we were going to save up the money for that. Or how I struggle with the fact that I feel like our lives have gotten so busy that our kids hardly see their mom.

Through my time in prayer and in my conversation with Erika, God finally brought peace to me. The peace that Dan had experienced when we visited the campus.

The Call?

So, I mentioned in my first post that we were planning on moving to Louisville to go to Boyce therefore during the month of May and half of June we were constantly looking at different apartments in Louisville.

Let the roller coaster begin!



June 24th
Dan and I were able to meet with a former pastor and very good friend Chris Harris. Bro. Chris was our pastor when we were youth and he was such a huge tool that God used when Dan and I first came to know Christ. Chris was in town for a convention and we were able to meet up with him.

We spent a little time catching up on old times and sharing pictures of our kiddos. But the majority of our time was spent talking about college, which wasn't really planned. At this point, Dan and I were beginning to doubt our plan with Boyce because, honestly, we couldn't afford it. And the money just wasn't becoming available. We shared this doubt and worry with Bro. Chris who then started telling Dan about other colleges that would be great for our family. The thought of another school was impossible to me, being mainly that I have a wonderful career that I just refuse to leave.

We spent almost 3 hours talking about college options. My thought, "No way! We are not moving! Chris is crazy!!"

History

Hey Guys! Welcome to our blog!!

For a while this may seem like a timeline of events that are happening in our lives right now, because, well, it's all happening so crazy fast, that I like to include the dates.

Let me catch you up to speed up to this point:
Earlier this year God called us to attend Southeast Christian Church, which for those of you who don't know, is a mega church located in Louisville, KY. It's huge! Dan and I have always grown up in little country churches and never dreamed of being in such a large church. But none the less, we obeyed His call and joined Southeast. I had this crazy feeling that God was up to something big. I was thinking more along the lines of Dan becoming a youth pastor at Southeast; boy was I in for a surprise.

The timeline Begins:
In mid spring of 09 God put the call on Dan to pursue an education so he could be in the ministry full time. This was all possible now due to him being laid off in early February, now his schedule was freed up. Immediately, Dan began looking into Boyce Bible College located near Downtown Louisville. It was a perfect plan, move to Louisville, go to Boyce, keep my wonderful job, and continue going to Southeast.

On June 18th I had lunch with a wonderful sister in Christ, who I don't get to see much so it's always great to hang out with her. She's one of those people who God just absolutely shines through and during our lunch together God convicted me of not having enough joy and passion for Him and I also felt conviction about living a comfortable life style for so many years. I don't even think Hannah realized that God was speaking through her. On my way home I felt so convicted that before going to pick up my kids I went home and just cried and prayed to God. Refreshing my walk with Him and giving Him my all. During this time with God, I couldn't help but think of the new Mathew West song Motions, and the Not A F.A.N. series that Kyle Idleman preached on at Southeast. (you should totally look the series up online at notafan.com, you can watch the sermons on line. Also check out Kyle's Sermon "Upside Down Way of Jesus" which kicked off the Not A Fan series! I want to be one those people who gives up everything for His glory.

All I have to say is be careful what you ask for. You may just get it!!!